As a stay-at-home, homeschooling mom, I have decided I need to celebrate little accomplishments and bits of unexpected joy rather than focusing on whether or not I cross off all the items on my to-do list each day. One thing I've realized about myself (brought into sharp focus during the holiday season as I read Secrets of the Vine by Bruce Wilkinson and The Shack by William Young) is that I think of myself as a "human doing" more than a "human being." I tend to feel the need to justify my "worth" by ticking off all the things that "got done" during any given day. I'm not sure why...my husband certainly would be the first to understand if he comes home to a house that looks like a tornado hit it. (He's spent enough time alone with the kids to know how difficult it can be just to get a meal ready!) And my parents undoubtedly gave me unconditional love and approval that didn't hinge on my accomplishments.
But there it is. And I'm glad I've recognized that trait in myself and put words to it so that I can turn it over to God. I want to let Him work on me so I can truly ABIDE in Him rather than working for His approval, which is basically what I do when I focus on DOING things for Him rather than BEING His child.
So. I've decided (resolved, if you will, since I haven't made any New Year's Resolutions to speak of) to take time to chronicle a different sort of accomplishment throughout the year--that of enjoying life and reveling in the intangible achievements, milestones, and steps I and my family take in our journey toward eternity.
Today, I joyfully praise the Lord:
* For the opportunity to hear my girls shrieking and giggling together as they played and read on the stairs. They are developing a special bond--no surprise, since Charis prayed 2 years for a baby sister!
* That my stairs got vacuumed. Even better, my 8-year-old did it!
* For a loving church family and the privilege of serving a meal to a family of fellow believers.
* For the words from my OB doctor today: "Wow, you're teeny-tiny!" That felt good after seeing how much weight I've gained so far (21 pounds)!
* For allowing Kenna to actually nap long enough for me to do Sonlight reading with the older 3 kids without interruption. Never mind that I didn't get to any of my business tasks today--we did school!! Piled on the couch, looking at wonderful books like The Greek News, The Year of Miss Agnes, Leading Little Ones to God, and First Guide to the Universe!
I hope to post more about the "little things" throughout the year. Heaven forbid that I neglect to enjoy the life God has given me in favor of "accomplishing" things.